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INTENSELY close to you, ...
To the world you may be but one, but to one you might be the world.

:( different.. try and listen =j.. --

Thursday, May 29, 2008 ( 5/29/2008 09:43:00 AM )

i just miss you
and
im really sad that i can't spent time with you.
and when you're with me,
i treat you badly.
=(
im disappointed with myself.
i hope i can perform well for you tonight.

im not hyper.
...currently not feeling the same as how i sound...
ermmm...i just trying to make things a lil better. =/
by showing you that i'm happy, i think that it would make u feel better.. but it seems that it's not working...
i think i would try a different approach =j.
ill try ;)..

* kills the miss *

chaioz! XD.. =/..

happy 10th monthsary =) --

Tuesday, May 27, 2008 ( 5/27/2008 09:36:00 AM )

happy 10th monthsary darl!!
hehehe
XDD!!

syg, although that i know that im late this morning
im really sorry that i did sucha thing on our monthsary.
i should have put my alarm clock tied around my head.
i mean, really. this time no one "disconnected" the alarm.
its just that my tired from yesterdays practice made me
feel so lethargic that i think even a bomb were to explode
beside me also i would hear it. yesterday i thought i was
under temperature because i felt sick and i was cold and my body was not warm as well. so i went sleep. but i forgot to give you good night message so went up and then i got K.O.'ed by don't know what. (somebody knocked my head uh). haha XD
i fell asleep while messaging the text to u. then i send it this morning. im soo sorry =/. hmm and yeah. woke up late. this also i want to thank my mom for waking me up. if not ill be super duper extreme late. so yeah, i woke up then bathe and all at around 650 i went out of the house. i mean how fast can i be. cehhh.. hah XD i woke up around 630. O.O??

anyways. i made her pissed off ='((
im sooo sorryyy.. i didn't mean to do so. wah next time i must not sleep uh. haha sleep only cause trouble. hhah i must put toothpicks on my eyebags so that my eyes will be wide open! nyahah XD..

ok.

*first break*

haha
great to know that you have feel better when meeting me. hehe that means that we should meet more then usual. haha tk cukup2 eh everyday jumpe. hehe XD
had a great lunch with her.
had fish burger, 2 pau's, carrot juice, pepsi, banana cake and donut. yeah. was full. but now (3rd meeting),
i'm still hungry. yeah haha
eeeeee!! geeeraamm! nkkk cuuuuubbiittt!!.

* second break *

was great! hahaha went down straight to lvl 3. then we went to south agora. went there for some chocolate thing. if u do some survey then it will be provided with chocolate. actually the survey is about the chocolate and the chocolate is the test subject. yeah. we didn't d it. hahah
we went to buy cup corn and then we bought sotong!. haha long time didn't eat. and yeah we also bought slurpee!.
then i suddenly felt really sick. haha
don't know why. suddenly feel so hot and quite weak. hmm i think i too tired uh. mann.. not again.. not now.. then i went to class. suddenly feel so pissed and anything would be at fault. aiyaa.. i need a lil rest. thn ill be fine =))
hmm i've finished present and waiting for 6th p to finish. then i'll be going to my practice. hope you can follow me to practice. but i don't wish to go home late. because i wan to send u home and TODAY ESPECIALLY i want to spent time with you. but i spent it on practice arrggH!!! damn it.
hmm better today won't be as late as yesterday again or ill be mad, hmph!..

* look at that cute cheeky face *
haha XD

just can't get my eyes off of you.
you feel like heaven to touch
i wanna hold you so much...
hehehe

happy 10th monthsary sygg!!!
mwaaahhhzzz!! mwaaahhhssszz!! XDD** hehe

i don't know --

Monday, May 26, 2008 ( 5/26/2008 03:18:00 PM )

mind was off due to unforeseen circumstances..
haha
but..
its ok.. =j
im sorry
i've made u feel down today..

but u knw..
but its just me..
and
im sorry for being me =r..

hmmm today
mood was...
her's & mine & school
equals to not good.
=r...
i dowan to go school anymore.

haizzz

chaioz!

a minute of silence --

Wednesday, May 21, 2008 ( 5/21/2008 02:40:00 PM )

how am i suppose to say this?
....
i guess i shall not say it now.
i will say it later.
one day.
i am a man of my word.
i don't wish to be a person who break promises.
again.

so please.
hear this.

whatever happens,
i pledge allegiance to love you till the end of my breath.

peace..

SUPER DUPER LATE! --

Friday, May 16, 2008 ( 5/16/2008 09:58:00 AM )

wah today im super duper late!
hahaha
cool shit!
long time i never came this late haha
i can still remember the time when i was in year one
then i came school strolling in.
hahaha
but then i was alone though.
ahahah now
although im not going class
at least i can meet my darling during her break
haha
last time i used to go out of here and took 911 to someplace else.
haha
u know where
hahah
hmmm but now i just stay in school and wait for her break
i can't wait to meet her later
she's bringing her Sims game
i don't know whether it's nice or not
but i've played the game before
bu it was a long time ago uh
when my playstation was in goody condition
hahaha
hmm but it's com version. so dunno
ahahah
hmmm ok ill just do some organizing in my computer while i wait for her

chaioz! C YAWL around!

time: 1005 am
venue: RP lib
eating: dynamite sweet
music: the kilers - read my mind
wearing: plain white tee, black pants

i miss you more =r --

Wednesday, May 14, 2008 ( 5/14/2008 04:25:00 PM )

ayg i wanna meet u today.
but u didn't want to.

ill just be trying my best to make an appointment with u
no matter wat =))

hmm. but ill stop if i think im pestering you aite.
plsss..
=))
...its ok if u don't wish to aite =)

Tuesday, May 13, 2008 ( 5/13/2008 09:04:00 AM )

ok la I'll be honest...

i nearly burst out to tears today...
although it went out,
but i tried my best to hold on to it.

i was in the bus for goodness sake.
there are alot of people.
so was keeping myself low and not to create a scene.
(duh!)

i shut my eyes like as tho i was sleeping.
i didn't know whether it rolled down my cheeks or not.
but i was keeping my eyes closed for about ten to fifteen minutes.
it was all because i was "scolded"/told to quit my Hip Hop IG again.
my parents both didn't even support me for who i am.
who i want to be.
and what i want to do.
i know I've neglected a lot of prayers time but...
I'm trying my best to have a fixed schedule.
but unfortunately i can't.
i hate to have one.
if i have one, i would also be "scolded" due to maybe that i have to follow some kind of urgent matters and I'm not following the schedule and then i will get "scolded" again/too.
so might as well i don't have one.
because overall i think is pointless to have a schedule.
it will just be making my life more organized as well as making more burden to myself.
so might as well be neutral.
so no need to do.

is the world really turning around??
that the ones you love is tuning his/her back on you which were suppose to make u feel better when your down or feeling ill or you need someone..

since the day i joined dance, i can feel that i was given a very very cold shoulder from my parents. and i say again, MY PARENTS.
i can't blame them because its them.
a thing about me that they don't like.
they won't bother.
i know mom tried to, on my butt's off finals.
but it didn't work.
dad, i don't need to say.
i know what u think.
"my son, a dancer??"
right??! i know i can't be fucking good at bowling or at badminton.
so please don't force me.
its just a leisure kind of thing.
need not necessary to be serious.

and wth.
say better for me to stay at home and STUDY rather then going dance.
eh fuck! why the hell i got a B for my first UT??!
if u didn't know whether I'm studying or not, you can ask how am i doing right??
i tried to study hard everyday in school, and u said that i don't study.
and u gotta be knowing how close i am with my current classmates.
bullshit!
asshole!
asdgfargicai jej
recwrhg
ercvsrgr
!!!!!!!!!!!!
arghh!
i know you all are trying to make myself a favor.
but i just can't stop whatever I'm doing right now.
I'll lost everything I've worked for.
my Interest Group/Hip Hop (CCA)
my polytechnic life
my youth
my darl ='( which is my everything..
and that's it
my everything..
if i lost her,
i really don't know what to do.
so Ferra, please don't say that i don't love you.
you mean more to me than you think.
you are there, when i need someone.
it was used to be my parents but it was way way way long time ago.
and my previous ex's,
was just something that plays around in my mind.
but this is something true.
i just want you to know that.
(she's going break with her friends)
it's ok. it has always been with you and me
so i guess its time for you and your friends to have break together.

....
I'm having a mind blockage now.
so i don't want to have anymore nags.
and i need to save some piece of my mind on today's problem.
so got to go.
=) or ='(..?
i don't know.
let's see how it goes today aite.
=) <---i hope so.
and sayang, dun treat me differently today. =(
i need you to be normal as if u have not read my blog.
okie dokie =)).
i promise i'll smile if u smile =))
ok. here is where i stop today
chaioz!

Monday, May 12, 2008 ( 5/12/2008 04:07:00 PM )

(Saturday night)

im so so sorry peeps
i didnt mean to make anyone in misery
im trying my best to be who i wanna be
like last time
but
as i go on,
i need time to retrace back
while carrying on with my current life

so

i think its hard
but give me time ok people.

and to my family,
i did a lot of sins to u by ignoring and putting u in a box at the side of my table
i promise to have time
to open the box
when it family time ok

to my Hip Hop friends,
im so sorry for not turning up practices and being someone who aint me
i love u all
i love making jokes like last time
lame ones
i know
but yeah..thats me
not now...someone who barely speaks
but hey, give me a chance too aites

and to my darling gf
Ms Nurifa Elferra,
you're the love of my life.
and i can't seem to find the right thing to say
every now and then
i don't know why.
i really love you and i don't want to stop loving you.
syg, i think i got to get my mind straight
and do lots lots lots of praying
which, honestly i'm just starting back after a long long break
i feel revitalize after doing my prayers
syg,
i miss you =)
anyways, u guys wanna know where she went to?
she went to buy a new bag yawl.
jansport.
fuyoo..
i need one too man
hahah XD
but its ok! *bluueekk!*
hahaha
syg, i wan to take u to a movie soon
but u'll have to wait k.
its gonna be a surprise ;)
i may just pop out and say "hey, let's go watch a movie! " +D
hahaha
so be ready yeah! ahahaha
syg, i owe u brownies for last month
haha
*got to make it soon!*
haha yeah.. i miss making them too
hahaha
sooo sygg, msg me when your home k.
i miss you sooo much!
x)))))))

btw i had this feeling due to the massive cleaning of my room
there is alot of space now and i can think broader as well.
haha
*physical thinking is interlinked to mental thinking*
coooll...
hahaa anyways.
gotta siap2
goin out with my family yawl!
hmm watching iron-man.
wonder how it is.
ok!
cool stuff had happen today
get room clean - checked
Ferra's home - no yet
get a good mood - checked
spent time with family - checked
spent time with Ferra - a lot more coming
hehehe
prayers - checked
.....
i think thats all for today!

its only 755 pm now..
so i guess there's more to be done..
and its a sat nigt.. soo.. yeah!
gotta/can do more things! hahhaha

ok chaioz! ;)

( sunday morning)

went to bowling and went out with family.
hmm was ok.
haha played four games
168,177,132,129

hahaha
no constant game at all.

(monday morning)

hahah went late for class
but ca do the prob statement uh hahaha
cool shit
hehehe
hmmm now i waiting for my gf
hahah

hmmm
now got to go bye!
chaioz!

recent edits ! --

Thursday, May 8, 2008 ( 5/08/2008 03:05:00 PM )

yo yo yo this is aome of the recent edits that i made
not that nice tho
coz i stopped gor quite some time due to computer wrecked
hahhaa
n now after some recovery
....
...
.

=')) --

Monday, May 5, 2008 ( 5/05/2008 11:28:00 AM )

syg.
we'll try k.

=')

pictures comes with great memories --

( 5/05/2008 09:54:00 AM )

irritating people makes peoples lives in misery --

( 5/05/2008 09:11:00 AM )

whats up with these people man
......................................................................................................
why do you bother us?
was it something we did?
i mean
we didn't bothered anyone as i know
stop stalking our lives.
if you want to read or interested in our lives
just read and don't anyhow critique.

what do you intend to do in doing all those unnecessary stuff?
you want to bring people down?
for????
tell me what the f***ing for??
i swear upon your whosoever grave
that this will be done back to you!
i wanna become a better person u know
but you made me say all this things.
damn spammers!
got no life!
and in to disturbing peoples lives.
what the F***in' job is that man

*********

I've been cursing instead of praying for the past days
i need my love to bring me back up to the top
but i guess she's having problems which affects me as well
so i guess I'm agreeing to her.
Syg. I'm here whenever u need me aites.
syg
just ignore those spammers aite
they are just there to get your mind off
and we will do whatever is necessary k.
hmm really,
if i were to know who it is,
............
and we got our suspects.

GET ON WITH YOUR OWN LIFE ASSHOLE!
!!!!!

Sunday, May 4, 2008 ( 5/04/2008 12:52:00 AM )

been "sick" lately
tired.
i mean
really.

i think i really need to go to the doctor
for some checks or what
whether my body is ok from any illness or not.

yeah.. PP's not done yet
gotta rework.
damn.
i think i need to stick to one idea.

and to those spammers,
damn la.
i really tired
so could you give me a break??
i had enough of toleration from everyone
but to my hearts content
now,
i can only tolerate my gf.
so SCRAM YOU F*****!

i don't care who are you
you are my friend
you are my foe
you are someone in RP?
I DON'T CARE!
damn you la
don't disturb me la f***

but i don't think u are an RP student
so F*** OFF!

syg,
forgive me if these bas***** have caused you alot of trouble
humble apologies to u k syg
i really love u no matter what k
no mater when im tired,
or when im asleep,
or even in my dreams,
i will always
always love you
i don't care what other people say
i just need u.
and only u know how much i love you
only u who needs to know.
heheh i dowan to wryte
haha

ps. i love you ferra

with love,
dF