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decipherer of a lost love.

i want to dedicate this to her. i can't sleep. but i think she's sound asleep. i love you. gd nyte.




honestly, i hate my mom when it comes to having my own freedom. im 20 tis yr. i knw what is bad and what is good.

and honestly, fuck this shit. id better write about my love more then wasting my time writing about this.

haiz. today, due to unforeseen circumstances, i didnt gt to meet her. haizzz..

really man.. without her. i dun tink i can find any other happiness in this world. i mean. hey you guys/gals out there pls do treasure ur bf/gf. dun just say, "yay! were together!" the next thing, not happy with small stupid thing, break off. really man.. dun pick that kind of life. dun ever think about breaking. u see. every problem has a solution to it. and i mean the solution EXISTS.. whether u like it or not, believe it or not,.. there will be a solution to any problems.

back to the main topic.
these people are the ones that will go through with you all the way. (and i mean the serious with relationships kinda person.)
they will understand you like no other.( and i mean couples who spent time almost everyday)
they would know whether ur in a right mood or bad mood or even in the condition whether ur in the right or the wrong side.

come to think of it, sometimes they are like ur twin but with different parents.

have you ever happened to hold ur handphone thinking about msging him/her, and by the time u know it, up comes "1 msg received". (no one can see how excited i am) have you ever thought that while you were on your way to school and hoped to meet her on your way and suddenly he/she pops up in front of you. ( i kept smiling on my way to sch walking beside her) have you ever wished that the sun didnt rise just so that you could see him/her sleep peacefully and comfyly knowing that youre near them... and have you feel that everything is inconsequential just becoz you have found everything(him/her)...

but good things doesnt come in one. a glass needs the base to carry the water inside. a candle needs its light. a bullet is nothing without its gun. thats why god makes everything so imperfect. because when 2 things comes together, something special will spark. and that makes the world perfect for them.

this ia a video i found that i like. blink 182 - i miss you. enjoy.




hey hey. ytd went out with darl.
she came all the way here sehhh.
from woodlands to pasir ris.
hmm thats far.
hahaha.

it went out well. we went to pasir ris park. and had our picnic there.
we had a few uninvited guests coming. gagaks especially.
irritating gagak. gakkk! gaakkk!
but nvrmd. the newspaper was in my hand. ;)
were safe. haha

then went home arnd 8 plus.
and there's thing thing called MOM.

why do moms don't understand.
i didnt do any wrong.
hmm. it jus makes me pissed off jus thinking abt it.
its just unfair u know.
y do i need to live the life of the past when im living in the present and the future.
yes they do have the experience and all. they eat more salt bla bla bla.
hmm. i just hate it when parents don't support their child and thinking only for themselves.
i mean, pampering and supporting is two different things.
i don't need pamper. i just need the support. and the thing is, you support me, yes, only to the things that you like. what about the things that im interested in? throw it in the rubbish bin?..

u see. pamper, u can have all the things in this world. with support, u gain confidence, more focused. sometimes you don't even need money to support. like moral support.

im sorry. i do appreciate the life im in now. but everything i do, i need to think whether does my parents like it or not. i dun want to feel that way. i want to think that my parents is okie with it and doesnt need to think whether they like it or not. i mean i don't like to go to clubs or asking to 'thon' outside with friends or smoke or drink or go to gigs or anything of those stuff.

i mean. im bad last time. i was caught stealing.. bla bla bla. but yes, i was caught stealing. but what they didnt know is that i didnt know who it was and i want to put it back coz i knew whose it it right after i put it in my pocket. i was around 7 and of cause i was scared to just take it out of my pocket. and i really want to put it back. but i was caught short after. so yeah. i tink ive been labeled for my whole life. but do i have another chance? i hope so everyday.

parents who does not give their child a chance is such a waste. i mean to child who does not take things for granted. for me, i do sometimes. but i do use my brain too. like duh. but to those who are like minah reps and mat reps, kirim salam suda la nk privilege.

but they do have a chance too. the ones that are undergoing rehabilitation process (taubat), i forgot the eng translation for taubat haha, yeah they do deserve a chance to change too.

hmm so yeah.. parents support is really important to build up a childs confidence and upbringing. the way i see it, it is not that hard to give moral support. sometimes i tink its just ego.

as for now, only her that can bring me the smile out of my face.
i just wan to collect money and get married. and lead a happy life. i hope.



ok thats all for now.
chaioz!




olryte. danceworks has passed! hahaha they did their best. i believe in that and i do believe in them.
yeaps. but through thick and thin, they went to stage together and dance as one. they didn't make it to the finals but im sure they gained alot of experiences from there. they had made it to go upstage together and make us proud nonetheless. well at least for me. =)

they had done it in the tshirt design category. they're in the top eight. their tshirt design was simple but yet nicely done. it was showing a puzzle of where you people would want to go in life. whether to live it by dancing or by taking drugs. its a cool design made by our very own zhiwen.

yeah. and through it all, the KEEGEE grp (im not sure what the team name is.. love something2 yeah) which got first place, followed by the fantastix (benjy's grp) 2nd, and flair nation(lukman's grp) came in 3rd place. overall only four teams made it to the finals. and the last grp was the fantastic kids. yeap 2 fan groups went through. they are sure a great crew.

yeap. and after danceworks. me and my darl went to ps for awhile to have a walk. but we're tired and decided to eat. we bought some stuff to eat and eat it near ps. just infront of the macdonals building. yeap. we sat there and eat and tried our choreos. yeap our choreo that we need to showcase it to jean.

id be using some song which i love and i just like the dancer. hahaha tell me who hates michael jackson dance moves?? haha its just so entertaining XD

and darl is using....~" were driving slow to the snow on fifth avenue..." yeap that song. dunno? go and find out hhahah XD

okie gotta go! chaioz! update you all tmr. btw tmr im going to acer to do some stuff. stupid lappy pfft hahah k. chaioz!

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