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Thursday, March 19, 2009 ( 3/19/2009 10:52:00 AM )

hey hey. ytd went out with darl.
she came all the way here sehhh.
from woodlands to pasir ris.
hmm thats far.
hahaha.

it went out well. we went to pasir ris park. and had our picnic there.
we had a few uninvited guests coming. gagaks especially.
irritating gagak. gakkk! gaakkk!
but nvrmd. the newspaper was in my hand. ;)
were safe. haha

then went home arnd 8 plus.
and there's thing thing called MOM.

why do moms don't understand.
i didnt do any wrong.
hmm. it jus makes me pissed off jus thinking abt it.
its just unfair u know.
y do i need to live the life of the past when im living in the present and the future.
yes they do have the experience and all. they eat more salt bla bla bla.
hmm. i just hate it when parents don't support their child and thinking only for themselves.
i mean, pampering and supporting is two different things.
i don't need pamper. i just need the support. and the thing is, you support me, yes, only to the things that you like. what about the things that im interested in? throw it in the rubbish bin?..

u see. pamper, u can have all the things in this world. with support, u gain confidence, more focused. sometimes you don't even need money to support. like moral support.

im sorry. i do appreciate the life im in now. but everything i do, i need to think whether does my parents like it or not. i dun want to feel that way. i want to think that my parents is okie with it and doesnt need to think whether they like it or not. i mean i don't like to go to clubs or asking to 'thon' outside with friends or smoke or drink or go to gigs or anything of those stuff.

i mean. im bad last time. i was caught stealing.. bla bla bla. but yes, i was caught stealing. but what they didnt know is that i didnt know who it was and i want to put it back coz i knew whose it it right after i put it in my pocket. i was around 7 and of cause i was scared to just take it out of my pocket. and i really want to put it back. but i was caught short after. so yeah. i tink ive been labeled for my whole life. but do i have another chance? i hope so everyday.

parents who does not give their child a chance is such a waste. i mean to child who does not take things for granted. for me, i do sometimes. but i do use my brain too. like duh. but to those who are like minah reps and mat reps, kirim salam suda la nk privilege.

but they do have a chance too. the ones that are undergoing rehabilitation process (taubat), i forgot the eng translation for taubat haha, yeah they do deserve a chance to change too.

hmm so yeah.. parents support is really important to build up a childs confidence and upbringing. the way i see it, it is not that hard to give moral support. sometimes i tink its just ego.

as for now, only her that can bring me the smile out of my face.
i just wan to collect money and get married. and lead a happy life. i hope.

ok thats all for now.
chaioz!